1 week had passed... Situation? Not very positive eh. Suddenly I'm out of words to describe what had happened and my feelings. Maybe I had complaint too much over the few days till I'm too tired to talk and think about it.]

Workaholic Evelyn is back again. Staring at the piles of work and couldn't wait to get rid of them. But it is going to be a stamina-taxing run for the next few weeks. The same statement that I was said, "Can handle lah. No worries." But I can tell you deep inside my heart, I'm damn worry and insecure loh. I really have no confidence in myself.

Just when I'm trying to be (or should say trying to act) strong and brave and confident enough to handle the challenges ahead, why must you make such a statement that hit me right on the bull's eye? Do you know that I nearly crumble off?

Me: Aiyah, no worries k? I can manage it.
M: I know at the end of the day, you'll be able to pull through cos given your character you'll never allow yourself to fail. But I'm worry about the process that you are going through. I don't wish to see you going through it so tough and rough.
Me: (totally out of words to reply, after a long pause...) Thank you. Really thank you.

Why must you always pull out the weaker side of me as much as I wanted to hide it from everyone else? Why are you always ensuring me that it's fine to be weak and dependent to others at times? Why must you make me feel that you seem to be the one that I can be dependent on? Do you know that I dislike feeling weak and vunerable in front of you?

PS: I just need time to be alone and sort out my thoughts and plan my route carefully.